Haunted

When Nick says "after Gatsby's death the East was haunted for me like that," I couldn't help but feel nothing but doubt (Fitzgerald 176). Why should Nick feel anything but relief? Didn't he say that he didn't know Gatsby that well? I would like to think that he feels this way because even though Gatsby and Nick's relationship might not be amazing, Nick still cared for Gatsby, and vice versa. Without each other, they wouldn't have discovered things about themselves and their pasts. It is quite interesting to see their relationship develop throughout the novel, but I related this odd relationship to my life. Never in my life have I felt like Nick has in any circumstance, so I was quite confused. Why should he feel the need to deserve an illegal bootlegger that essentially used him to get close to Daisy? All I can think of Gatsby is as a ghost, something haunting Nick to the end of his days. Just as Nick recalls Gatsby's effect on him, Nick only remembers the past, nothing about the benefits Nick himself received. I can not support Nick's feelings about Gatsby if this is all Nick could remember Gatsby for. In my opinion, their relationship was not one at all; Nick was merely a love-struck admirer. This reminded of all the little ghosts I saw coming to my house October 31st asking for candy. Even these ghosts wanted something in return for being near me, just as if Gatsby was beckoning for Nick to remember his glory.